Honestly, I could really go for a good cup of American, or English, or South African tea, and a hug from a friend.
But, I am learning to appreciate little naps and snuggling with Jesus.
Life is good.
You may fear that the Lord has passed you by, but it is not so: he who counts the stars, and calls them by their names, is in no danger of forgetting his own children. He knows your case as thoroughly as if you were the only creature he ever made, or the only saint he ever loved. Approach him and be at peace.
I am learning.
I am learning that God brought me to a base full of joy-filled people. People who truly love God with all of their hearts, souls, minds, and strength. I am encouraged by nearly every person I encounter—just their presence is inspiring.
I am learning how deeply I appreciate Spirit-led worship, and am so thankful I came to learn about the subject at a place full of it. God is sought and loved and enthroned in lives, words, songs.
I am learning that it’s okay to be the one who needs translation. It is okay to be the one a step behind in conversation and a little bit lost most of the time. Things will get better and even if they don’t—it’s okay.
I am learning about grace.
I am learning to say yes when my roommates I can hardly communicate with ask if I want to go to the market. There is no value in seclusion or withdrawing or avoiding situations that may be rough. They are moments that take effort and in a way are therefore the greatest ones.
I am learning to stand on my own—or more, completely reliant on God. Even though I don’t feel at home in this place yet, it’s okay to pick a seat independent of where someone else is sitting and it’s fine to go back to the house after lunch by myself. I don’t have to be dependent on other people for things. I can be comfortable and confident in myself to do it on my own. Even though this place is unfamiliar. It’s okay to in a way not have people. I will learn about who I am myself.
I will learn about the One I then lean on.
I am learning.
To think that before the hills were formed, or the channels of the sea were scooped out, God loved me; that from everlasting to everlasting His mercy is upon His people. Is not that a consolation?